I feel like "just a mom" again! It has taken me all week to unwind and just rest. We see all the fun pictures of everyone on spring break trips...and here we are...in the cold, snowy Michigan. Attitudes around me have struggled. But I needed this! My mental state depended on just stopping and resting. I have cooked and baked. I have taxied kiddos around to various places. I have netflix binged. I have played hostess. I have cleaned, a little. I have read 2 1/2 books that have nothing to do with personal growth and education. I have sat and stared out the window.
I keep hearing "we should have done this" or "we could have done that". Call me the dream squasher...no, we could not! You see, Dad is traveling for his job again and the teenagers have now all acquired jobs that have training dates and schedules. "You wanted a job...now welcome to adulthood! You can't just call off to go off here or there, that is not dependable nor responsible."Yep, for some reason, I am the "bad guy" as I remind them the choices we have made as a family. But then...yesterday...we all ended up around the table eating lunch at a reasonable and respectable time for lunch...chatting and laughing. I think we are so used to going and doing and going...that we have forgotten how to just be still and rest! I know it is hard as a teenager...but we did have plans Tuesday and Wednesday that included fun and other people.
There are many options to occupy our time...some involving school prep and work, some chores, and some leisure activities! Notice the craft supplies that I purchased still sitting in the same spot...grrr!
So here is to staying home this spring break! The weather hasn't been totally nice for outside fun...well...Velle has loved it! "Everyone else" is having fun. We have so much to be thankful for...and we have been given the opportunity to practice that this week. When we go back to school next week, life picks up speed as we finish the school year and start jobs in earnest. I, for one, am starting to have panic attacks when I think about all that has to happen in six weeks (I shouldn't have done lesson plans quite yet...now all I can think of is school stuff.). We longed for spring break just two weeks ago.
We have it right now...and it is almost gone. I will do all I can to savor the last few hours of rest at home...in the peace, quiet, and calm...with my hot cup of coffee and a little dog curled up on my lap.

